When things are scary

When things are scary all around

Just keep your feet down on the ground

Don't think too much about what's bad

Try keep things quiet in your head

Feel all the energy inside you

The inner body, the life in you

Be here and now, but without judging

Or calling things by names, no tagging!

Get your attention on your breathing

That's all that matters, only being!

You'll find the space inside of you

That creates all there is, all new!

What happens outside, you should know

Is an illusion, just a show

Is nothing good or bad, it IS!

It all depends on how you please!

And how your mind decides to see

The things for you, so you're not free!

Make peace inside you, stop the fight

Against the present moment's fright!

If you just let it all exist,

Will go right through you, don't get pissed!

As long as you don't act like rocks

But just like water, it all flows

And you will be at peace and well

And torments vanish like a spell!

The more you will resist to things

The more you'll be tied down in strings!

Once you will learn to be at ease

With everything, you have the keys

To happiness and peace and joy

It is all well, life is your toy!

The other day I was waiting outside of a doctor's office to get in for a checkup, because I've had some issues lately that were quite scary for me, and I was getting panicked. I always get highly panicked at the docs, because that's how I was raised, to be afraid of these "monsters". When I was little, I was being told that if I wouldn't eat I would get in the hospital, if I don't get more thick clothes I will be given shots and so on... and well, of course that starting with these ideas, my experiences with doctors, as well as my family's experiences, were not the most pleasant. I only see now that it was all because the Law of Attraction really works! What you believe, what you speak, you attract!
But that's not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to tell you that sitting there and getting scared, my heart started ponding and that scared me even more because I was at the Cardiologist so it was to my best interest that my heart acted nice so she won't get me to do more checkups and more nasty stuff, as pills and such, lol. So, I was like... OMG what am I gonna do??? So I remembered what I read ... and I tried to just concentrate my attention on the inside of me, and not on anything external, like the clinic hallway, the white robes, my ideas, nothing. I tried feeling my inner body and the energy inside me, I concentrated on breathing, and I just realised all of a sudden that it was nothing as bad as I thought. Thinking, when it causes you to feel pain inside, is bad. Thinking is only good when you wanna do something that leads to a good thing for yourself and others. Temporarily "disconnecting" my thinking process was healing. My heart stopped ponding and I felt safe and "at home". I don't know if this makes sense, you'll have to probably read "A new Earth" or "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle to understand what the hell I am talking about. After this, I could just become present. I was all "here and now" I was seeing things only as they were, without attaching the tag of "scary" to the nurse, the tag of "cold and unwelcoming" to the hallway, the tag of "scared to death by what the doc might say" to myself and so on. I just lived  things as they were. The nurses were just people passing by, the hallway was just a hallway in a building, the doctor was just a person that had gone to a school and was practicing whatever she had learned there, to make a living, and so on. Nothing was a monster anymore. Thank God for that! :)
So practicing the "presence" does work, people!
Only that, what people usually don't pay attention to when reading these books, or maybe some do, I don't know, is that the authors do tell you that it is hard...very hard to keep being present, especially after living for so many years being... drifted away by the thinking! But if you manage to live being present all the time, you are freakin saved! Disconnect your crazy mind, keep it handy only to use in case of need, and just BE, just exist, be aware of everything that happens without seeing it through your own experience! Let it just exist!
Peace!
xx

Learn To Love

When someone loves you very much

You have to think at things as such

That person won't depend on you

They have to learn to let love through

They shouldn't keep it all inside

Love has to flow, to come and go

Or it will rot inside the soul!

And when I say to "come and go"

I mean it has to always flow

Only like that it stays a river

And doesn't cause pain to your liver! :)

Teach them to love themselves as well

And learn to feel it and to tell

Never to keep it all inside

Because noone can use the pride!

The love is in each one of us

And has to be let out, it MUST!

Love! Without hoping to get back

More love, 'cause then will be a lack

Love just to love, 'cause it feels good

And not by thinking and by mood!

This little poem was inspired by my readings lately, where it said that love has to go through you, it has to be let out, so it can return back to you, by the Law of Attraction. In "A New Earth", Eckhart Tolle was telling us that the real kind of love is the unconditional love, the love for love, not for benefits. We have to love the others without waiting for love in return, that is the only way for us to be happy! Otherwise we are only prone to disappointment and frustrations and hurt. Because we can't rely on any other person for our own happiness, although that is what most of us does when in a relationship. We love and expect love back! You SHOULD expect love back, but not from a person, I don't know how to make myself understood here, is a bit more complicated, and I hope I understood it right. When we EXPECT things, they are supposed to come to us, but we have to expect them like... like a believer, knowing that love is our divine right, not like... "I love yo so much and you dont love me back as much... then you suck and I suffer!" lol. We don't have to NEED and DEPEND our happiness on them!! Hope this was more clear. Love unconditionally and expect love back from the Universe, from God, not from a certain person that happens to be your romantic interest (and then you are most likely to get it from them too!). I have made that mistake and I suffered so much, I still am not 100% good at unconditional love, I still need him to love me back and to act the way I want him to, but I am thankful for still having him nearby me and I am working at this! I, at times, wonder how come that I did not manage to scare the heck out of him with all of my fits! 
So that is what I wanna let you know, love for YOURSELVES, because that is what we are supposed to do as BEINGS, we are made of love and only the mind and the ego separates us from the real purpose of our existence, which is loving ourselves and the others, and everything else, because we are basically the same, we all have the same thing isnide us, the essence of the Universe, the Conscience, or the Soul, if you may. These words would have seemed nonsense for me a while ago, but going through the tough times that I have been through, kind of rubbed off the EGO shell and allowed me to use my intuitive intelligence more, and I am very thankful for that!
So, people, LOVE!
Love yourselves,
Love everything, because ALL has a reason, all is to your good!

Peace and love to all!
xx 

When is too hard

When is too hard

To do a thing

You have to breathe and just not think!

What is, it is!

It can't be changed

So go with it, and don't get raged!

Your mind will try to say it's "Oh!

So so impossible", you know

But trust me here, if you will listen

You're only trapped! Mind is not wisdom!

You'll have to do it anyways

And you can choose between 2 ways:

The silly way, to suffer double,

Once in your mind, once from the struggle

The good way is to just let go

Of the control, and on you go!

Just go with what is called "the flow"

What is, just is, we have to know

That only by the things we say

We get bad happenings our way

Don't fight with life, enjoy your ride

Is all  to good, God's by your side!

And every thing that looks so bad

Leads to your good, by God's command!

Allright so this is my little poem for today, cuz I realised that I love love making them, and it's very easy too, and if it's easy, means I should be doing it, and is probably what I should be doing...as life purpose? I was looking for it and I prayed God to show me my way, and then I just got the idea to do the things I liked best when I was little, and poetry is one of them! So, thank you, God! :)

If my poem was not very clear, as poems are just poems and they are not as clear as prose, obviously, I will try to explain what I meant, below.

I was inspired by what's happening in my life right now, cause at the moment there is plenty of happening in there for me to draw alot of inspiration from it!

Lately I have been struggeling alot, lately, meaning ever since I gave birth to my son, almost 2 years ago, my life turned completely upside down, not only thanks to him but to many other events with no apparent connection between. And even if my son is the biggest blessing in my life, I have been through struggles and things that would have been unthinkable for me prior to this period of time, and I managed to do them! At first they put me kind of down, but, little by little, as I was studying the Law of Attraction and all this New Earth and New Age Philosophy, they started not to feel as bad and as hard to surmount! Because I learned to let go of control and just go with the flow! I learned to accept the present moment and only try to do the best that I could, with the given situation, without trying to fight against the given situation anymore. And I found out that I was way more happy like that! I didn't get anymore feelings of uselessness and of being unable and of being a failure, and also, I didn't really care anymore about what others would say of me! Because I KNOW, I FEEL that there really IS a good in every bad thing happening in life (I knew that even before reading about all that). The things are only apparently hard or bad, because everything that happens is taking us to a higher level of consciousness, is for our best!! And if I start looking back to all of my life, I can see that from every bad thing, a good thing came, eventually. I suggest everyone do that, look back and try to find the good that came from a bad thing. You will sure find it, if not yet, then surely sometimes in the future. God only loves us, God does not punish us, at the most, we punish ourselves! And we punish ourselves usually with our mind, we create so much suffering with the mind! Try to only use your mind for things that do good to you and to everyone else, and if you feel a suffering, a bad feeling, means you are not using your mind the right way. Change the way, it IS in your power!

Peace to all!

xx

A little poem came out of nowhere!

(yes these are my eyes! :))

You only see what your eyes want to see
The peace inside is there though, let it BE
So just close your eyes, and listen to me!
You are way more than they told you you are,
When you will start seeing that, then you'll get far!
But please take a moment and think of it now,
Don't let your life run too fast and somehow...
You really deserve all the best and you should
Rely on yourself for seeing all good!



Oh my, I don't know where that came from! :D I think hearing again Madonna's song "Frozen" inspired me, because I only now realised that its lyrics are about all the things that I've been studying lately, about all this spiritual growth and stuff! And when I was younger, actually really young, I was good at writting poetry, but in my own language :) I don't know if I am any good in English, besides, it's been eons since then! BUT! I remember I REALLY LOVED writting poetry! And it was so easy for me! I loved it and the teachers were encouraging me to do it, and I went to some children's poetry contests...and then classmates started making fun of me for being an air head for that matter :( Let alone the fact that by that time, in my country was a communist regimen, so they were trying to make me write poems about the "great amazing communist leader"... UGH! All that turned me off from writting poetry, but I guess now I realised I was never really over it! Soooo... I might start writting again, for my soul! Even if nobody reads it! :D:D Just so! Is actually better if nobody reads it, it is clearthat I can't take criticism! LOL! I actually don't know about that, I should be okay with it, if living from the illuminist perspective :D
Allright, enough for today!
Peace to all!
xx.